*"You're always up to no good"* - phantom planet

now, don't get me wrong, College is actually really eventful. so eventful that i haven't slept in like a week or so. Fall oh six is almost over, and honestly, i'm about ready for it to be done. lord is it so much work. but as the guy in the equiptment issue room would say,

"you wanna be a filmmaker? then make it work"

with that tucked deeply in my mindset. i start to wander off on other topics. such as this one: Yolanda.

Many of you may not know that Yolanda is the name of my Scion XB, my beloved car in which spend most of my waking hours in. a few weeks ago she did not start. after another 2 weeks of towing and repairs, she is back. but not with me. see, my mother and my father are angry at each other and in turn i get the brunt of it. Lying here in my room at my mom's house rite now i miss her. sad thoughts run thru my head. o my.

I have also gotten an addiction to espresso. I've been having starbucks give me extra shots and you what, they are really useful. not only do i get more done, i'm in a more active mood. although it gets me a little too active and as a result, i'm louder than i already am. which by far, is too loud for most libraries, restaurants and outdoor facilities. shame. but the crash and the end of the day is the perfect side effect. you know why? because it cancels out another one of my neuroses: insomnia. mmm...i love sleep. but i can never get to sleep. unless i'm in a car, that's another story. it reminds me of the womb, the last place one would get pure undisturbed sleep.

goodnight everyone.

i'm short and short of breath now. don't tempt me. the last thing i want is to have you unplug the lamp and read my mind. because honestly, who's stopping us? they have a habit of coming to life on me. be careful mon cherie. this one is a keeper. hell. it's kept already and you freak out everytime you think you've lost it. i've been so bad this year.

*please*

"i am as lifeless and unattractive as a blow up doll"

why?

*"when heaven and hell decide..."*

School is in full swing and i love it! art school is so different from everyong else's college experience n i love that too! it's so odd going to the different places to visit ppl and seeing how college life is "supposed" to be. dorms, meal plans, herpes...etc..makes me feel like i'm where i'm meant to be..cuz the academy fits so well...except that no one really talks to me...cuz they're all sociopathic weirdos..just like me.

 i have really difficult hw n must sleep

 goodnite darling. i could cry now.

*pulling to get her*

It's been way too long since i've blogged here. all i can really say is that there has been way too much that i've been doing and way to little i have been cataloguing.

-camping-Flo's cotillion-school stuff-slave labordoesn't sound like much..i know, but trust me, it is. but i got great news tho!I am FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY an official student at the academy of art university, hence the sicker on my car...and of course, my ID badge. it's been a hard road trying to get here...and finally i am. just a few more changes to my schedule and i believe monday is my 1st day. i feel like a huge weight has been lifted...and i can finally stop being a loser taking naps in the middle of the day and watching food network cuz all my friends...even my 5 year old sister ...is at school. pity.so now! as my 1st official action as a college student...i'm going to join facebook...i'm not letting go of my myspace er anything crazy (god, who would do that?) but i'm just gonna get up on it...n...take advantage. it's college. the new slogan for the next few years: "why not?"p.s. it's meant to leave my actions open to scrutiny, so it's not as careless as it sounds...it's overwhelming. it's gigantically important. it's exhausting. it's invigorating. it's lovely. it's delightful. it's stressfull. it's fretful. it's here, or it's there but most importantly...and you should remember this: it's not to be fucked around with